I've been noticing that it is a lot easier for me to meditate when I picture something happening. I have to follow the breath and picture it like an ocean tide, in and out, in order to stay with it for any length of time. If I am just being still and "blank" too many thoughts come in and I don't notice very well that I am thinking until I am bored of sitting still and wander off. When picturing waves or following the feeling of warmth from the in-breath into my belly and out again, I can calm down and notice extraneous thoughts a lot easier.
I actually like meditating when it calms me. I know that this isn't the point of it so much - the point is just to do it and notice what you are thinking or feeling. But I like it a lot more when the thoughts finally slow down and stop slamming into my consciousness with force. For me, it is a lot more successful when I don't have anything else to be doing, or feel like I could/should be doing. Far from being a priority, I relegate the stillness to a back burner. I should be reading, or drawing, or cleaning, or catching up on emails. I should be out for a walk, or cooking, or spending time with Derek since there is so little time for that. It feels selfish to schedule a time for meditation during the hours that Derek is home with me. And yet I don't find myself doing meditation in the mornings, because I spend those hours waking up, washing, last-minute work drawing or emailing, and sometimes wanting to relax and read or play a game or play with the cat.
Does anyone I know have a successful meditation practice? How do they establish it and make it a welcomed part of their day instead of constantly shoving it to "another time" because sitting around watching TV seems more convenient. Is meditation even supposed to be convenient?
I see that I do get a lot out of the practice, when I do it, and I can see how with regular practice I could be a lot more chilled out and more present. I would like to do that for myself. How to start making it a habit?